You're GONE.

You start the convos, all because that time.
You said you wont leave me hanging there.

You're once my favorite person I met.
You and your flirty response, I like it.
You said a lot things and makes me feel that you're different.
You're cute, sensitive, emotional and etc.
You think you're annoying but I like it.

You meant a lot for me once, but now I feels like you're gone.
You are much more "cooler" than last time.
Your hyper is gone.
You are a stranger for me now.

I miss you.
I miss the old you, non-stop chatting, day and night.

I like you? Am I ?
I hopes this is not true.
I hopes things will go back like the past.

I wanted to meet you.
I wanted to talk with you.
But when I saw you, all these feelings and thoughts gone.
Immediately.

I don't want to end this friendship between you and me.
I will give you the gift and everything will be the same like last time without you.

Life go on.
I'm good.
Nothing is bothering me.
I'll be alright.
I'm fine.
The gift I'll be giving you, it gonna be like giving my feelings out.
No regret. No going back.
Live like nothing happened before. :)

Can't Let Go

DO you ever feel that you're not into a person but actually you're ? Until you lost it and you start regretting why you didn't even wanting her/him to stay at first.

At the first, you really hate them and think that they will regret and come back for you and it's their loss. After a moment, you will start to be sad, regret and wanted him/her back, but you can't do anything, and feeling failure for a relationship. Slowly, you will start stalk them and watch every single thing about them on social media, want to find them to chat but don't even have a single guts to make the first step.

I am the kind of people that doesn't like to make the first step, cause sometimes I feel that I have been annoyed them and I hate people last seen me (I don't know why, but it make me feel that people doesn't like me, and scared that I'm not good enough), and it's hard to make the first step when your mind start to send the signal like "what ?!! Why ?? What if they last seen you or ignore you, what a fool, you will be ignore dude!!" "Don't start it first, it's stupid" "How am I gonna start a conversation ?! Haih it's better being alone..." "They don't even want to chat with you, if they do they will come for you."

During the holidays, it is hard without your love one, thinking about them all day and wondering will they miss you, did they think that wanting you back? Watching every single social media, hoping they will find you chat, but it is impossible..! WhatsApp, Facebook... Everywhere!! Watching they change the WhatsApp status from a cute name you gave into a normal status, watching them living like everything doesn't happen before, watching they are online but pretending you see nothing but actually you hoping they will chat with like last time....

Scrolling twitter, saw all kinds of quotes, feeling, facts and etc... finally the first time I felt the same with the tweets.. Some of tweet ask you forget about them, let go all the memories.. Can't make it, it's hard.. All kind of tweet have lock in mind...

Feeling so sad, start searching some sad romance movie, storybook, music.. Hope it may help to release your feeling... but it actually didn't help at all... Watching them still very active on every social media, wondering do they even felt sad about every single that they make. Hoping to make some change with that but can't do anything with that.

Yea... You are living pretty good without me.. :)

Wanting to chat with you, hope you think that too;
Hoping you living good, actually you did;
Wishing things can start all over again, but I can't;
Saw you around the street, don't even realize is you after friend tell me;
Will you actually missing me ? Yes or No only one;
Watching twitter very emotional tweet and start thinking you :)
Lying on bed, can't sleep... The only things I can do is thinking of you..
"Love You" has been a long time did say it out even is friend or family, just waiting to let you listen it again..
Reading romance story books, hoping our relationship can be like that to...but..
But still thank you giving me this memorable moment, it show you actually very cute in my mind and heart.. Always the same.

In the positive ways...
Always wanting to talk to you, but where is my guts ?
It actually gone when I'm with you...
Why?
Cause being with you actually is my first time and I'm not perfect for you :)
In the negative ways..
I actually hopes you regret that you have decide to break with me..

But anyways, thank you being once in my life.. hope we can be like last time, but maybe it's a wrong idea, oops... I will love you like always :)

Have a good day, love every single people beside you, maybe one they will leave you without a reason and leave bunch of pain for you to struggle.. We will meet different kind of people, they might leave you one day, learn to let go even thought it's hard for you... :)